I am taking a break. I need to get some shit together. I am taking this opportunity to reflect on my future. I having been contemplating for sometime the actions of a fast paced, hyper world. I want to slow down and simplify my comings and goings.
I have not been able to sleep well for a long time. When I was in Indonesia I had no ready access to high speed internet, 500 channels of entertainment, or the numerous mind numbing activities that I have here. I must change something.
I have decided to remove as much energy consumption from my daily diet as I can. I hope to walk more, use public transport, eat less calories and locally. I am limiting my computer usage to checking email for a half an hour every other day and for use of paper writing.
With the free time I am seeking to begin a local ministry with some like minded folks. We want to start a clean needle exchange or clean needle kit ministry to addicts in the area. With the hope of forming relationships that will lead to recovery for all involved.
This is my prayer until the morning of the 23rd of March…
Mighty King Jesus, I retract in spirit with You into the desert; teach us how to fight the triple ambition of the flesh, pride, and materialism. You are the true Bread of Eternal Life, appease our hunger. Beloved Creator, open our hearts to the voice of Your Word and free us from the original darkness that shadows our vision. Restore our sight that we may look upon your Son who calls us to repentance and a change of heart. Renew our eagerness to work for you in building a better world, so that creation may hear your gospel of peace and justice and respond with humility, to love mercy, and to act justly.
In the transcending name of Christ, Jesus
see y’all on Easter.
I exam myself to see where the chinks in my armor are,
I forgot that I don’t have any armor.
I hope that my penance is good this year.
I race in thought to the finish line. I bought a pair of new kicks.
Prayer fills the air. The tax collector pounds upon a well worn chest. It beats fashion a rhythm unlike a symphony and similar to that sound that is made when the garbage collector arrives at 6am on the morning of your unfortunate hang over.
Those pious fasting children of Africa and else where make us all look bad. I must fast better than that. I can give up…
Love flows over the season. Mourners cradle the thoughts of loss and the conviction of gain. Suffering coats the walls of the flesh temples that make up the church. Us and them march in a sing-song of cackles and wailing…only Bob could understand. Yet love works to free us and them stand and watch.
I vow to read the living waters. Only I get washed out. The ink bleeds from the pages and stain my fingertips. My nose itches and now I have a puppy nose.
So I sit under the Bodhi tree. The sun rises and falls. The crowds come and go. The moon blankets the land and reveals the mystery of creation, the misery of life, and the joy of relationship. I sit. I wait. For 40 days I chase the dragon. The dragon will bring truth. It will deliver peace. I wait there under the tree with my eyes closed. Unconscious the Bodhi tree becomes the dragon I chase.
I love Lent! I love love love it. Why?
I get to self loath with purpose and faithfulness!
I struggle with what to do for Lent. I have fasted once a week. I have given up food, drink, bad personal habits. I have also added prayer, silence, abstinence from habits and or random stuff.
I wrestle with what to do this year. This is my last one prior to leaving seminary (I hope!). I better make it a good one. I want to succeed in a sacrificial and devotional posture that proves I am repentant and remorseful of what I have done and what I have not done.
What to do?
I seek to control my environment in this practice. I hope to lose weight so I dream of fasting my way to a healthy physique and spiritual life. I hope to become pious and righteous, so I pray and read the Bible. Just so I can get the proper attention and adoration of a scholar and saint.
This year I have considered two things; giving up all forms of visual stimulating entertainment (TV and movies) and leaving it up to y’all.
So I open the vote to you on Strove Tuesday, perhaps it is super to you as well…
Vote in the comments section. Thank you for participating in the election of my ecclesiastic future.