Someone googled searched “I am scared I am dumb” and wound up at my site. I wonder what king of hurt inspired this person to look up this information. I pray they are well. I want you to know you are not dumb. It is normal to be scared. I encourage you to seek out trusted counsel.
It is not easy to go about life alone. Please believe that you are not beyond friendship. You are not called to be alone. I pray that you find and/or are in a loving community.
Please reach out to someone. If you need help please ask someone. I am praying for you and the hurt that brought you to search “I am scared I am dumb.” I have felt scared and most certainly I feel dumb.
You are not the first person to feel these emotions. I shall pray you are brought to a community that will walk with you in these moments of terror and isolation. I pray God provides you comfort in your hurt and wisdom in your terror. Blessings and peace be upon you.
A prayer from Thomas Merton:
My Lord God, I have no idea where I am going. I do not see the road ahead of me. I cannot know for certain where it will end. Nor do I really know myself, and the fact that I think I am following Your will does not mean that I am actually doing so. But I believe that the desire to please You does in fact please You. And I hope I have that desire in all that I am doing. I hope that I will never do anything apart from that desire. And I know that, if I do this, You will lead me by the right road, though I may know nothing about it. Therefore I will trust You always though I may seem to be lost and in the shadow of death. I will not fear, for You are ever with me, and You will never leave me to face my perils alone. AMEN