A new day, the same worry?

I am wrestling with my ordination results and the subsequent comments. I am wondering if I am a Presbyterian and if my call lies as a pastor in the PC(USA). I fell called to serve. I would like for it to be in the Presbyterian ranks. Some Baptist and non-denomination churches would like me to come aboard.

I need to discern what to do next. As for right now I have decided to put the ordination seeking on hold. Mostly due to my inability to seriously address the concerns from my committee. My father would say I need to shit or get of the pot. I say I need to fast and pray to gain insight into this conundrum.

I will not agree or align myself to a confession or decree that I cannot support fully. This is my problem. I had no idea what it meant to be Presbyterian. Now that I have a clue I need to make sure I understand and that I am called before I commit.

I was speakng to a recent grad this eve and was uplifted. I pray I make no haste decision or move towards deconstruction absent of salvation.

God grant me courage and wisdom! Amen

3 thoughts on “A new day, the same worry?

  1. Matt says:

    What do you mean by “support fully?” Do you mean agree with fully? I’m almost certain you won’t find that anywhere, unless you start from the confession and work back to what you believe instead of the other way around.

  2. Ryan Pappan says:

    I mean that I can exist and abide by the sanctions and direction I am asked to. I must answer questions to become ordained by the PC(USA) and I am not certain I can respectfully and truthfully “properly” answer them today.I am praying on this.

  3. Reyes-Chow says:

    Ryan – Wish I was in Austin cause we could go grab a beer and talk. Yeah, you have to go with where God leads, but there may indeed be no THERE THERE. If it matter I have at least 10 reason I want to leave the denomination and at least 10 more that call me to stay. In the end, there is far more that fits who i think God wants me to be here than in other places. Denomination or not, that should be what we all seek. Blessing bro!

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