Meet Me in the City

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After this there was a festival of the Jews, and Jesus went up to Jerusalem.  Now in Jerusalem by the Sheep Gate there is a pool, called Beth’zatha, which has five porticoes.  In these lay many invalids–blind, lame, and paralyzed.  One person was there who had been ill for thirty-eight years.  When Jesus saw them lying there and knew that they had been there a long time, he said to them, “Do you want to be made well?”  The sick person answered him, “Sir, I have no one to put me into the pool when the water is stirred up; and while I am making my way, someone else steps down ahead of me.”  Jesus said to them, “Stand up, take your mat and walk.”  At once the person was made well, and they took up their mat and began to walk. Now that day was a Sabbath.

 

John 5:1-9

 

We live in a world hell-bent on destruction, power, and domination.  The competition for resources is heating up.  Well, we are governed by the third law of thermodynamics.  Which says, “It is impossible for any process, no matter how idealized, to reduce the entropy of a system to its zero point value in a finite number of operations.”  What this means is that everything we do expends energy, on an individual & corporate level, heat is a byproduct of these energy exchanges and eventually all energy will be heat.

 

When the heat is on the pressure also increases.  This is the natural state of the world.  This is thermodynamics in play.  I bet y’all had no idea that you were going to get a lecture on thermodynamics this morning.  I am no expert in physics but I did get a good nights rest.

 

You see I know just enough physics to sort of impress a well-educated people.  Perhaps, bore is a more accurate word.  There was a time when I was better versed in science and math; then again this is true for the entirety of America.  We are following the path of entropy and losing energy to heat, heat in the form of public rhetoric.  The louder and more profane the public discourse the truer it must be.

 

Knowledge is being tried as a product of the devil.  Reason is being branded the muse of evil.  Love is for those not strong enough to Lord.

 

Faith, hope, and love are being replaced with guns, sex, and wealth.

 

Aurora.  Newtown.  Oak Creek.  Carson City.  Grand Rapids.  Tucson.  Fort Hood.  Binghamton.  Blacksburg.  All have fallen victim of mass shootings in which high capacity magazines and military style weapons were used to commit these atrocities.

 

For every mass shooting there are 100’s of other violent deaths perpetrated with the barrel of a gun.  Trayvon.  Benji.  Heaven.  Cordell.  Brian.  Carlos.  LaToya.  Ronnie.  Jerome.

 

These pasts few weeks there have been a few cases of very young children killing other young children with guns.  The response has been one of public outrage and condemnation.  The counter to this has been the circling of wagons and the call to arms.  The government is working to undo the 2nd Amendment.

 

They shall beat their swords into plowshares, and their spears into pruning hooks: nation shall not lift up sword against nation; neither shall they learn war any more.

 

We are knee deep in another fight for civil rights.  The Defense of Marriage Act (DOMA) and California’s controversial law banning Same-Sex marriage, Prop 08, were heard in the Supreme Court last month.  DOMA restricts over 1,000 civil rights and liberties to legally recognized married couples.  Then defines legally married couples to be opposite-sex only.  Prop 08 and many other State amendments seek to define marriage as “Traditional” between a man and a woman.

 

63% of the nation disagrees with this.  If you break down the demographics by age more than 80% of those under 40 believe that couples same-sex or opposite-sex should have the right to marry and all of those protected rights that come with it.

 

For years now there has been speculation about gay professional athletes.  The WNBA has quietly led the charge to full inclusion.  A gay athlete in the WNBA is not an anomaly it is part of practice.  The NBA just got its first out athlete.  Jason Collins came out as the first gay male professional athlete saying, “I’m a 34-year-old NBA center. I’m black. And I’m gay.”  The condemnation was swift.  Sides gathered and fingers pointing in the direction of “those fake Christians” began.

 

In an article on CNN John Blake writes, “As proof, Sprigg (a public speaker of opposition to homosexuality) points to the backlash that ESPN commentator Chris Broussard sparked recently. Broussard was called a bigot and a purveyor of hate speech when he said an NBA player who had come out as gay was living in “open rebellion to God.” Broussard said the player, Jason Collins, was “living in unrepentant sin” because the Bible condemns homosexuality.”  Mr. Sprigg then relates that it is easier for people like Jason Collins to come out as gay than it is for people like Mr. Broussard to oppose Mr. Collins for being gay.

 

“What God has cleansed, no longer consider unholy.”

 

Last week I read an article in the New York Times that shared with the public that there is a church in NYC that has a 2 billion dollar endowment.  A two billion dollar endowment!  Their pastor makes a $600,000 salary per year.  And they are fighting over the money and how to spend it or not spending it.

 

All of this while the middle class deteriorates.  The rights workers have fought for over the years are being taken away.  Wealth accumulates in the top tiers of society and poverty and hunger grow.

 

Denominations everywhere are experiencing a loss of members.  Megachurch, non-denominations, mainlines, progressive, conservative, black, white, Korean…they all are losing members.  In the wake of these losses resources dwindle.  Fights over money ensue.

 

While fights over money happen, in the background hundreds of clergy are turned out in to a world with the average of $50,000 of debt to serve a church that is fighting over money and might have 3-4 years of livable service in them.  The panic button has been pressed.  The ship is being abandoned.  The church is not sustainable as it is.  We are not broke.  We are not destitute.  We have clinched our fists out of fear.  Look down at our hands, what is it that we are holding on too?

 

It is easier for a camel to walk through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter heaven.

 

I say this with love.  If you are Christian in the US and believe that you are being persecuted for your beliefs, you may want to revisit that thought.  Christians make up over 70% of the nations population.  If you want to go down the line and start weeding out “real” Christians and “fake” Christians that might be the root of the problem.  There is no fake or real Christian.  That is up to God not you.

 

Listen to the parable again, There was an ill person lying there at the well.  They were one amongst many, lying there exposed to the sun, struggling for shade.  Looking for hope.  Countless people walked past them, intentionally not making eye contact, lest they become dirty in the process.  Stepping over and around them.

 

Jesus saw them there and asked one of them, Do you want to be well?  The sick person said yes…Then Jesus’ eyes rolled up and back in to his head.  He waved his hands in a circular fashion as he recited some indiscernible words and POOF!!! A cloud of smoke filled the air.  [cough, cough, choke…] When the smoke cleared the crowd saw that Jesus had turned the ill person in to a well.  Now there were two wells from which people could be healed.

 

This world could use as many wells as it can get.  There is a diversity of faith.  There is not one way to be Christian, nor is there one belief that is Christian.  But your belief had better be one that connects you to the world in real ways.  If your faith does not connect you to the world in real ways you might find yourself in Beth’zatha looking for a cure.

Tener una Coca-Cola y una Sonrisa.

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Have you ever had a feeling that you could not describe?

 

Something moves you to indescribable heights.  You have experienced it before.  It is like an old friend that you talked long in to the night with way back when.  Y’all moved on.  Distance clouded you.  You never forgot about them.  Maybe you looked them up from time to time but convinced yourself to not bother too much time has passed.  One day y’all connect and it is like no time has passed at all.  You make promises to stay in touch.  You do well for a few months.  Life gets busy.  Things pile up.  You are stressed.  Y’all lose touch again.

 

Hope is like that for me.

 

Deep down inside I am an eternal optimist.  I do in fact believe that in the end of my life I will be able to look upon it and witness much more good than bad.  The hope I hold on too is easily shaken.  Like my old friend when the going is good I am all in.  When the tough gets going it becomes a little harder for me to stay in touch.

 

This semester has been very tough.  I wrestle with my place in the church.  I am frustrated and angry about my experience as a minister.  It wasn’t supposed to be like this.  I am thankful to be able to attend social work school.  I delight in the education I am obtaining.  This semester my health lapsed and it has been harder for me to do what I normally do.  I can’t seem to get enough rest and my stress levels are taxing.

 

I am nearing the end of the semester.  With the prospect of a summer internship and no classes for 13 weeks I am hopeful for the future.  I am worried about the now.  I have failed at being present in my daily life.  My spiritual life suffers.  My physical exercise has banished.  My health waivers.  My hope has been very low lately.

 

I went to the stop to get dinner this evening.  I passed the case with Mexican Cokes inside.  I love these things!  I can’t have them due to my diabetes.  My wife can have them.  I grab 2 and put them in my cart and remind myself to not forget them.

 

I walked around the store talking pictures of saints, candles, and cookie jars.  I wander through the aisles pondering what is calling out dinner.  I started thinking about all the work I have to do.  I wrestled with the thought of me not being good enough or smart enough to do doctoral work.  I started in the negative self-talk.  I got real bummed.

 

I went to check out and had to wait about 10 minutes in line.  When I got there I unloaded my groceries and paid for them.  As I put my bags in the cart to leave I noticed the Cokes in the cart still.  I grabbed them and informed the clerk that I intended to pay for them and forgot to.

 

The man behind me, whose groceries are now being processed, says, “May I buy them for you?”

 

I was floored.  My first thought was to deny his request.  He’s a stranger.  It’s only a couple of dollars.  But I obliged his request.  He smiles and the clerk smiled.  All down the line folks started to smile.  I shook this mans hand and thanked him for the kind gesture.

 

I left that store and made dinner.  I am now remembering all the good times me and my pal Hope have had over the years.  I ought to call her more often.

What’s Going On

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[The following sermon utilizes Pslam 139, the theology of Paul Tillich, and is fueled by the music of Marvin Gaye]


Where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?” These are powerful words from the 139th Psalm. The psalmist proclaims the utter inescapability of God’s presence. The futile works of humanity to hide from the divine creator. The incalculable waste of evil working to unravel the goodness of God and the fearfully and wonderfully made creatures God hath created.

This week has been wrought with suffering, pain, and woe. Boston, West, Chicago, Pakistan, China, and the countless and nameless or faceless people that suffer and die in this world. How can this be O God?!? We just witnessed the resurrection miracle of Easter. We have spent weeks hearing about the resurrected body of Jesus the Christ visiting his friends and family. We are waiting for the Glory of Pentecost to take up the mortal coil of Christ and deliver unto us the Holy Spirit of God.

How long must we wait O God?

I don’t have an answer for this question. I am exhausted from all the pain, suffering, and woe that seem to fill this world. The injustice visited upon people because of the color of their skin, who they love, and who they are is a heavy burden. A burden I am not sure I can bear any longer.

How long must we wait O God? How long must we wait for justice? How long must we wait for peace? How long must we wait O God?

This is the condition in which the psalmist writes, “O God, you have searched me and known me. You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from far away. You search out my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways. Even before a word is on my tongue, O Lord, you know it completely. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is so high that I cannot attain it.”

We are spent. We are searching for answers. We want the pain to subside and that promised joy to return. We search for a scapegoat, someone, or something to pin this on. We cannot bear it alone. Our neighbor, whom we love, cannot prop us up any longer. We have become vacant.

We bargain with God. God you know all about me. Not a thought crosses my mind without your knowledge. How about you letting me in on some of that knowledge? You seek to flatter God with the understanding that you are not worthy of the knowledge that you seek. You press on in flattery hoping that it will eventually be seen as or turn in to humility. God has not changed. God will not change.

In humility, when tears no longer flow and the voice of prayer has escaped us we enter the psalmist midst by saying, For it was you who formed my inward parts; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; that I know very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth.”

We have always known God intimately. Before we were here we resided in the bosom of God. There God fashioned us to be mighty works of peace. We are wonderful works of divine quality.

We cry out, “Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my thoughts. See if there is any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting” and then we collapse in a huddled mess of humanity or perhaps we ignore it all and get numb.

Where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?” There is no place in creation that does not have the stamp and seal of God. This is sometimes comforting and in other moments this can be sheer terror.

This week I find comfort in the fact that God is present in this mess. God never left the victims, the cities, the first responders, or even the bombers. God still has not left. Then where is God?

If God exists, then why do bad things happen to good people?

If God did not leave us, then where is God’s presence?

I ponder these questions searching for answers. I wish I could stand here today with a sack full of candy and pass it out in celebration of the soothing balm of knowledge I have to offer you. But as the psalmist proclaimed, Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is so high that I cannot attain it.”

I stand before you here today, tired, hurting, longing for peace, on the verge of giving up and letting go of hope. I am near the breaking point and am flirting with the Dark Side of the Force. My anger blinds me. My frustration fuels me. My ignorance compels me. My faith prevents me.

Why is it that when I have nothing left to give. Nothing left to offer God carries me through. Your eyes beheld my unformed substance. In your book were written all the days that were formed for me, when none of them as yet existed. How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! I try to count them—they are more than the sand; I come to the end—I am still with you.” God already knows the script. We are actors in this prime time situational comedy drama.

This is not to say that our actions bear no consequence. After all we are the hands, the feet, the hearts, and the minds of God. We are the bearers of Christ’s good news to the world. We are the space between sentences. We are the margins of the page in the Lamb’s Book of Life.

In the face of great tragedy we are called to respond in prayer. We are called to respond in hope. We are called to respond together. The war has already been won. We are to fight the daily battles of faith, hope, and love. Offering over our entire mind, our entire heart, and our entire will to God. As Bishop Desmond Tutu reminds us, “Goodness is stronger than evil, Love is stronger than hate; Light is stronger than darkness, life is stronger than death; Victory is ours, Victory is ours through God who loves us. Victory is ours, Victory is ours through God who loves us.”

 

Where can I go from your spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?” The answer is nowhere and no place can you escape the spirit and presence of God.

Ain’t No Sunshine

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Later, Jesus himself appeared again to his disciples at the Sea of Tiberius. This is how it happened: Simon Peter, Thomas (called Didymus), Nathanael from Cana in Galilee, Zebedee’s sons, and two other disciples were together. Simon Peter told them, “I’m going fishing.” They said, “We’ll go with you”.

 

They set out in a boat, but throughout the night they caught nothing. Early in the morning, Jesus stood on the shore, but the disciples didn’t realize it was Jesus. Jesus called to them, “Children, have you caught anything to eat?” They answered him, “No.” He said, “Cast your net on the right side of the boat and you will find some.”

 

So they did, and there were so many fish that they couldn’t haul in the net. Then the disciple whom Jesus loved said to Peter, “It’s the Lord!” When Simon Peter heard it was the Lord, he wrapped his coat around himself (for he was naked) and jumped into the water.

 

The other disciples followed in the boat, dragging the net full of fish, for they weren’t far from shore, only about one hundred yards. When they landed, they saw a fire there, with fish on it, and some bread. Jesus said to them, “Bring some of the fish that you’ve just caught. “Simon Peter got up and pulled the net to shore. It was full of large fish, one hundred fifty-three of them. Yet the net hadn’t torn, even with so many fish.

 

Jesus said to them, “Come and have breakfast.” None of the disciples could bring themselves to ask him, “Who are you?” They knew it was the Lord. Jesus came, took the bread, and gave it to them. He did the same with the fish. This was now the third time Jesus appeared to his disciples after he was raised from the dead.

 

John 21:1-14


I used to have a very romantic vision of fishing. Fishing was a great escape and contrast to the landscape I grew up in. I imagined whistling and skipping along the old road to get to grandpas secret fishin’ spot and chugging Pepsis and Moonpies. I grew up in Los Angeles where going fishing was a grand ordeal. One could not just go out back and drop a pole in the ole creek. Unless, you were Redneck Kevin would stocked his swimming pool with catfish and gave tattoos in his garage.

 

Outside of Kevin, if you wanted to go fishing in Los Angeles you have to hunt for spots to do so. If you were my buddy, Randy, you went to the Sepulveda Dam Recreational area and fish for crappie along the banks with the homeless fishermen. Randy fished for sport. The homeless fishermen fished for food, from a highly polluted “river.”

 

If you were Mark, you gathered your gear in to your decked out El Camino and drove 35 miles to Castaic Lake. A massive man-made lake that hosted scores of urban anglers, race boats, and as much wilderness as one can get along the campfire littered shoreline filled with the left behind families melting chocolate.

Standing there along a pier that stretched out into the lake, along with 20-30 other adventure seekers you had to pull out all kinds of tricks to get your barb to stand out among the rest. Axel grease, cheese puffs, Velveeta, marshmallows, and not so alive crickets working its magic to land that prized catch.

 

If you were Little Dave, you were a burgeoning Pro fisherman, trying to make his way on to the B.A.S.S.masters tour. Driving around a truck that pulled a matching boat with a whisper soft motor and made your own rods in the garage. Posing as conqueror with crying catfish nailed to a 2×4 frame slowly gasping for breath that is not there. Little Dave took fishing seriously. He approached fishing like it was a science.

 

Little Dave wandered the West Coast looking for that magical spot that would deliver what ever it was he was looking for. He wandered the wilderness. He made a good showing at this until one day he stopped. I am not sure if he found what he was looking for or if the wandering got old. But he stopped.

 

If you were uncle Dave, you lived on a bait barge outside of Angels Gate where San Pedro Bay meets the Pacific Ocean. You sold mackerel to local fishermen and traded bait for stories. You spent weeks at a time on the barge and had lobster for breakfast. You shot salt rock buckshot at the harbor seals that tried to get in to the bait nets where schools of fish circled around until they were liberated in to the mouths of bigger fish.

 

Then there was uncle Bob. He lived in the suburbs. Had a great job. A beautiful family and a boat docked in Ventura. He would spend his Saturday’s bobbing on the ocean. Sunscreen on his nose. Captain’s hat on his head. He escaped his perfect world to get connected to the dangerous and uncontrolled wilderness of real life. Uncle Bob was a tender soul looking for God in all the right places. Fishing was a vehicle to the divine.

 

Over time as I have lived in various towns and cities in the US and abroad, I have encountered many fishermen and fisherwomen. All with a different reason for fishing. All hoping and searching for something. Many of the disciples fished before they met Jesus and naturally many of them fished after Jesus had died.

 

I wonder that if the disciples had been sanitation workers would I harbor idealistic hope for trash and cleanliness? What if the disciples had been carnival rousties, would I be obsessed with carnies and sideshows?

 

Fishing makes for a great metaphor. And for those of us that love fishing it makes for a great excuse to go fishing. I am not a fan of sunburns, baiting hooks, sitting in a wobbling boat for hours, or gutting fish. I love the people in my life that do fish and support their pursuits.

 

I just don’t need fishing to encounter Jesus. I’d much rather be a fisher of people, than a fisher of fish…

What is your fishing?

How do you seek God in your life?

Who do you seek God with?

Why do you seek God at all?

We all like breakfast, right? We can start there…